Friday, December 25, 2009
2009, a reflection
No, this is not a work of fiction. However, I couldn't let that one pass. :)
2009, I set out to change myself and the bits of the world to which I have immediate access. In some ways, life reared up and bitch slapped me good. In others, I gave as good as I got, if not better. This has been a year of gathering up the pieces and forging a new iteration of Laurie McCright.
I am FINALLY graduated from university, and financially independent from my parents. It feels...extremely liberating to be under the control of myself. Sometime in the past year, I have uncovered an extremely independent streak within myself.
I am incredibly excited to learn the violin, and really really hope that Brooks will let me borrow his violiiiin ::puppyface:: ;)
I'm learning to knit! YouTube is teaching me :) I wish I had a random old lady to teach me, because I feel like that would be extra-effective.
Mom has tried to throw away my magical baking apron. That is awful and shouldn't be allowed to happen ever! I intend on keeping that apron for at least another couple of decades! Preferably forever. Forever sounds good. Maybe one day my apron will be in a museum! ;) On a quasi-related note: More and more I desire to open up a small cafe/restaurant. Definitely my career choice after I get sick of doing psychology as a profession (for I will never tire of it in general, people are ALWAYS interesting).
One of my most favourite sensations ever is to walk outside on a cold winter's evening. Looking up at the clear night sky, feeling the cold wind bite into your flesh; it makes me feel so very alive. I try and keep my mind on things I love; it keeps me grateful. :)
I have three hundred dollars in my PS3 fund, and in three months FF XIII comes out. I will be incommunicado for at least three days. I am so excited, you have NO IDEA. ::bounces up and down::
I miss my UNT friends, especially Elizabeth, Courtney, and Caroline (who isn't even in Denton anymore, so I NEVER seeee herr! AND she doesn't have unlimited text messaging :*( ).
I love Christmas, even though this time of year is extremely over-commercialized. <3 :)
Friday, November 13, 2009
Never Say Never
Sadly, you will have to wait. My brain is tired cause it's 2:30am and I just used up all of my brainpower in an extended dialogue about all manner of things with Brooks, and Lord knows I can't mentally multi-task whilst doing THAT! ;)
Night, loves!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Realize
This is not something I do on purpose, at all. In fact, I get terribly cross with myself when I catch me doin it. Worse, I'm so terribly unreasonable that I get irritated at whatever guy that's tryin to get in my pants at the time, for not even trying to see through my crazy facade....not that I even mean to have a facade! >.O Augh!
::eye roll:: I do a splendid job of ruining my own chances for happiness, no outside sabotage needed! ::sigh::
On that note, I'm really not all emo at the moment. Just very frustrated with myself!!
Nighty night! ;) --Laurie
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Lookin for Herself out There
So, having epic bronchitis or whatever it is that I have, is interesting. Not really fun-interesting, but it does make me think. I always get sick this time of year. I hate not being able to sing when I'm sick! I'm not especially awesome at it, but it's one of my most favourite pastimes. :)
I am drivin 85 in the kinda mornin that lasts all afternoon, just stuck inside the gloom. Four more exits to my apartment, and I am tempted to keep the car in drive...And leave this all behind.
I suppose the most recent turn my life has taken started on Hallowe'en...or maybe months ago, lounging in my dorm room...or maybe even years ago, with an IM. I am tempted to put "there are no beginnings or endings to the turning of the Wheel of Time" (so I did). ;) Right! Back on topic! So, I am periodically struck by extreme restlessness in my life. If I do not find a good outlet, I will do something Really Dumb. So, I up and took off to Arlington on Hallowe'en, to visit Laura and go to a party, just cause I could. After much Badness and Drama involving Robert, and an angry Italian man named Mauro, Laura and I both were like "screw this!!" and we up and took off for Austin, TX.
That was probably for the best. We both needed to just get the hell outta dodge. We ended up staying with Laura's friend Eric's parents. Very nice people, tooootally all about getting Laura and Eric together, which just isn't gonna happen. Not that Eric is a bad guy! He just doesn't have a strong enough personality to handle Laura. In retrospect, we probably could have crashed with Mallory, but it probably worked out for the best. We hung out with Eric and with Brooks, as well. I am glad Brooks and Laura got to hang out, and I got a small kick out of watching their miscommunications. ;)
Touché, subconscious, touché.
In other news, I am probably going to have to file sexual harassment with a server at Cracker Barrel. He asked me to see a movie with him, so I did, and we went to Denny's and ate afterwards, but that is the only time I have EVER spent time with this guy, except at work. The next day, he was telling people we'd had sex and making all sorts of INAPPROPRIATE sexual comments towards me, getting all up in my space, and almost got VIOLENT with me! He asked for my CAR KEYS...AFTER he got off work! Tell me, what person in their right mind would give someone they have only spent a handful of hours with their KEYS! Especially when their wallet and important papers are in their car! Uh...No. So, he got all up in my face and threatening and it was No Bueno. However, he had managed to piss me off enough that I didn't fold like the wimp that I usually am. I very calmly told him that I didn't trust him and if he wanted something from my car he could just wait until I got off and that was that. I was...more proud of myself that I should have been. Such a minor thing should not have felt like a Boss Fight. (Seriously, I could almost hear a FF boss medley in my head).
I go back to CB for work on Friday; we'll see how that goes.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have synethesia, but most of the time I actually really consider it a blessing. It makes me feel like a secret-ninja-superspy! It can get kinda creepy, but really only for other people. I generally just don't tell people how deep it goes. ;)
I've been really appreciating my friends lately. Really really reeeeeeally. I love all of y'all. Thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much! Okay, so more than that, but I got tired of holding down the I key. :) My heart has been kinda crazy lately, but it's nuthin' I can't handle! I've had sooooo much worse, after all!
What would you think if I sang out of tune,
Would you stand up and walk out on me.
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song,
And I'll try not to sing out of key.
I get by with a little help from my friends
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Baby's Black Balloon Makes Her Fly...
I can really weather most anything, so long as I have at least one person to anchor myself to, one person that I know that I know that I KNOW won't betray me. Sadly, I am freaking insane, and have epic trust issues. These trust issues were made a zillion times worse, thank you David Kinney. I often screw myself over in this regard.
I sometimes wonder why the people I care about put up with my crazy bullshit. I surround myself with broken people, because I love them and because they are somewhat like me. It's the Unbroken People that confuse the hell outta me. Why would they hang around?
Confessions: I'm way too sensitive, I'm a selfish bitch, I wage war daily upon my unrequited romantic feelings, I kissed Robert back because I felt sad, I am fighting tears. This was not my intended blog topic at ALL, but, the Internet has ever been my confessional.
Maybe tomorrow I will have scrabbled my way out of this freaking pit I seem to be in, emotionally speaking.
Much love to Brooks for even *attempting* to speak to me when I am like this.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Thoughts from Kirk and co.
As the conversation went on, Pokemon came up. Yes. All of us currently in the 16-to-24 demographic remember Pokemon well, especially those of us who are male. Ladies, if your 16-to-24-year-old boyfriend says he doesn’t remember Pokemon, with all due respect, he’s full of shit, and probably has three binders full of trading cards lying around his parent’s house like the rest of us. Ask him what the GameShark code is to get Mew or how you catch a MISSINGNO, and then watch his fingers. He can deny knowing anything about it to the world, but I guarantee you, the muscle memory never dies.
In fact, just start singing the theme song. He’ll know the words.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usTrPZoAW3Y&feature=player_embedded
Sa ajmoha alaaaaan! Pokemon!
Anyways, Bihong and I got talking, and apparently he had seen some sort of comic book where people actually fight wars with Pokemon and Team Rocket can actually kill people. Naturally, this conversation led to such conjectures as “what would the Isareli-Palestinian conflict look like if the streets of Gaza were overrun with Squirtles?” Finally, a lightbulb went off. B and I decided to assign political and world leaders one Pokemon each. Who would they choose? Why would they chose it?
We decided to limit ourselves to the original 150 Pokemon, since our knowledge of Pokemon from the Gold and Silver games was limited, and anything after that, well – we felt lost. And old. Here are our decisions. Feel free to add to this list.
Barack Obama
Pikachu
Originally B and I had both agreed on Blastoise for some random reason, but we decided Pikachu would be more appropriate. Both Obama and Pikachu are incredibly popular, marketable, and charged with saving the universe. Some might also argue that both are too weak to take on their enemies, both need to evolve a little more before they can become true (Pokemon) masters, both are a little overrated, and both can get kind of annoying (“Hope!” vs. “Pika pika!”). In spite of this, the people have spoken. Obama/Pikachu, I choose you! (Also, as an aside, the latest version of Microsoft Word recognizes Pikachu as a real word, but not “Barack Obama.” Bias much?) Chances at becoming a Pokemon master: Pretty good, I guess.
Hillary Clinton
Gyrados
Isn’t it obvious?
Chances at becoming a Pokemon master: You know…I wouldn’t piss her off.
Bill Clinton
Jynx
Again, kind of obvious. Jynx is the only Pokemon with breasts. It’s blonde, kind of frumpy, and is the one thing in the Pokemon universe that looks kind of like Monica Lewinsky. Totally Bill’s type. And you know what? Even with his token Jynx in tow, he would still be a kick-ass president. I could totally see them animating him into one of the cartoons.
Chances at becoming a Pokemon master: Ohhhh, yeeeeeah….*lights candles*
John McCain
Slowpoke
No disrespect to Sen. McCain. He really is an American hero worthy of praise. But when you are someone who claims the economy is doing great on the day it crashes or can’t figure out all kinds of newfangled things like this “Internet” stuff, well….
Chances at becoming a Pokemon master: Uh…no. Just no.
Sarah Palin
Magikarp
Because when we’re backed against the wall in a battle and we have no other viable options, we throw out whatever we’ve got. In the Poke-verse, sometimes that’s a Magikarp. In the Republican Party, well, that’s Sarah Palin. Now there are legitimate reasons to play a Magikarp. For instance, you might play it in hopes that the stress and the experience points will lead it to evolve into something awesome (see “Gyrados/Hillary Clinton”). But usually, it just flops around. Its only defense is the pity it elicits from its enemy. Beware.
Chances at becoming a Pokemon master: Finish him off with a Splash attack, Sarah!
Arnold Schwarzenegger
Machamp
Good luck trying to get either one of these muscleheads to speak English. GAH GAGAGA GAAAAH, the great state of CA-LI-FOOOOOR-NYA…
Chances at becoming a Pokemon master: Eeeet’s uh TUUUUUMOR! Get in ze chopper! And come with me if you want to LEEEEEEEEVE…
George W. Bush
Mankey
Dubya was kind of hard. There were so many options available. But ultimately, we settled on Mankey. Citing Wikipedia, both Mankey and Bush have a “round, pig-like snout.” Both are “usually calm and somewhat mischevious, but if it gets angry it can be very dangerous." Mankeys also "enjoy various fruit, such as honeydew melons." Don't know what that has to do with anything, just thought I'd add that. Plus, in the cartoon, "a Mankey stole Ash Ketchum's trademark red cap." We could see Bush doing that.
Chances of becoming a Pokemon master: Only history will tell
Joe Biden
Psyduck
Both tend to quack a lot, but both can be smarter than they look. Also, physical resemblance is uncanny.
Chances of becoming a Pokemon master: Well, he’s vice president. That’s pretty good. And Psyducks are good at foreign policy I hear…
Dick Cheney
Drowzee
Again, physical resemblance is uncanny. Plus both are alleged to have unholy mind control powers.
Chances of becoming a Pokemon master: Cheney wrote the book on it. So…sleepy….
Kim Jong-Il
Jigglypuff
Sure, we like to give Kim Jong-Il crap for wearing grandma sunglasses, and from what we understand, during the Dear Leader’s weekly karaoke meeting with his advisors, he also has the power to make people fall asleep. But the thing about both Kim and Jigglypuff is – you have no damn idea what the hell either one is going to do next. And that makes both these little pink fluffballs extremely dangerous. Just imagine a Jigglypuff with nuclear weapons. Then tell me that doesn’t terrify you.
Chances of becoming a Pokemon master: JIIII-GA-LEE-PUFFFF, JIGA-LEEEE-EEE-EEE….*BOOOOOOOOM* Demilitarized zone between North and South Korea evaporates, Grandma Kim smiles sinisterly.
Anyone we left out?
--Kirk Cooper and Bihong Chang
Friday, October 16, 2009
El Scorcho
But that really has nothing to do with anything.
I'm going to do better to write down my superawesome ideas. Or at least remember to blog on a more regular basis. I never think about it when I'm in front of a computer! I always think about it in the car, or in the shower, or someplace where I definitely cannot write. Fail.
Visiting Austin is fun. I had bubble tea for the first time today! I like squishing the pearls in my mouth :) I have consumed so many calories today it's redilculous! At least I did a bit of walking...? ^^; Meh. I'd rather be fat and happy :)
I have dozed off several times and slipped down in the computer chair in a noodle-like fashion. I think I'd best give this exam up as a bad job and do it in the morning. I have until tomorrow night to complete it, and I don't reckon that half-asleep would yield the best result.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
These Golden Rays
And you know what you could lose
Oh, when you've got mountains to move -- "Mountains to Move", Gavin DeGraw
I'm sitting in Books-A-Million. I totally should be being studious and working on classwork, but I finished what was pressing, so I feel I'm entitled to a few minutes of blogging. :)
I am terribly, freaking CRAZY excited for Elizabeth's 21st birthday party NEXT WEEKEND!!!! ::laugh:: I'm afraid I just CANNOT shut up about it! :) I'm making a black magic cake with creamcheese icing cause it's her favourite. I personally have never had creamcheese icing on chocolate cake, but...it sounds interesting, therefore I must try it!
I love the changing of the seasons, with the possible exception of spring to summer...and that's mostly because I really don't like summertime very much. I need a summer home in a place where it doesn't get so blasted HOT! Or maybe the Southern Hemisphere...where it would be WINTER, and just avoid summertime entirely. But then I wonder if I would appreciate fall and winter so much if I got to have them twice a year?
Something is wrong with my GI tract to where I can only consume a few bites of food every few hours without throwing it all back up. I reckon it's pyloric sphincter fail again. (I am fairly certain that's the one that controls the passage of food from the esophagus into the stomach, but I might be wrong and I'm too lazy to google it). Normally, it just spazzes for a bit, causing an intense pain for about 20 seconds, but then relaxes and I'm good. Lately the pain has been worse, and longer, and I feel like the food just fills up my esophagus instead of my stomach. Poor tummy :(
I feel very calm and chill right now.
I had another run in with Tre. It amuses me that every girl I have told about the incident has been aghast/pissed off on my behalf, while the guys really didn't see what was so offensive. I'll break it down for ya. I get mad when guys offer to pay my bills, or buy me expensive gifts, or give me money expecting me to consent to date them. This goes double when they're not my boyfriend, and about quadruple when they are barely an acquaintance. I am very pick about whom I let pay for things for me, especially men. I'm really really easy to guilt trip, and half the time I guilt trip MYSELF without any outside prompting, PLUS I am too proud to accept monetary assistance from random people. In short, I must trust you before I will consent to you paying for things for me, and even then I'll object. ;)
I have a gajillion things I have been meaning to record from the past few months. Here is one of them:
At Taylor Bishop's wedding, where I was a groomswoman, after the service. I am chillin on a pew, waiting for my turn to go stand in the photos with the rest of the groom's party. Chris, one of the best men, is sitting next to me, while Anthony, the other best man is on the pew behind us. Taylor's grandpa (who is a lot like David's grandfather, IMO) came up to Chris and was nagging him about his haircut and joining the Navy and whatever, I wasn't really listening at that point. Chris mentioned to Mr. Bishop that he was jealous of Taylor, to be married to a great woman, and that he wanted to be married someday. I was surprised by this, and turned to say so when Taylor's grandpa interrupted me and said, "Well! Keep talkin like that and it won't be too long before you will be!" while looking VERY pointedly at me. Chris and I = ^^;;;; Anthony = ROFLMAO For the rest of the day Mr. Bishop continued to make comments and try to pay matchmaker between Chris and I, and it was hilarious as well as very awkward.
However, I felt extremely vindicated that day. I had an EPIC crush on Chris in the seventh grade, but he didn't like me. His eyes almost popped out of his head when he saw me in my dress for the wedding! Haha, take THAT! ;)
And I wanna be free
Wind in my hair
Salt on my skin
Sun in the air
I have to feel love
Holding on me
I'll give you everything
that you would ever need -- "FREE", Gavin DeGraw
Friday, September 25, 2009
Hellogoodbye
Oh blog-readers, I am fixin to turn my poor world on its ear...again! You see, my niece is in an abusive home situation....but I will be moved into the New House with Tiffany by mid-October. We have discussed it and prayed about it and feel like we should invite her to come live with us. This move is guaranteed to make my entire family hate my guts. Awesome. The major issue is that I would need my sister's permission for her daughter to live with us. I have been up to my eyeballs in Texas state law, and while at 17 you can have all the sex you want or be tried as an adult, you cannot legally move out without parental consent, or being emancipated. It would be difficult, but...I'm sick to death of watching someone I love suffer. I'm going to try, even if nothing comes of it, I at least got up off my ass!
Lord know I can't live without some sort of random drama, it seems. ::eyeroll:: Life has been too good lately! Obviously I need more stress. Heh. Seriously though, life has been wonderful. I'm still jobless, and I have random boydrama, but I've been happy! And that's 3/4 of the battle right there :)
Tomorrow I'm all set to make punkin pie and cinnamon buns.
...I just broke my comptuer chair armrest. Sad day. ::mourns armrest::
I went to the fair the other day! :) I love funnel cake and caramel apples and getting slung around at high velocity! ::beams:: I'm goin to the store to buy some gala apples and sticks and I'm making my OWN caramel apples and they will be delicious and yummy. (I hope!)
Wish me luck in my crazy family endeavor, mes amis. :)
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
It's Like Taking a Guess
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
and based on your body language,
and shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is -- Jason Mraz, "A Beautiful Mess"
I'm having a thought here. In reading for my American culture class, I stumbled across a random footnote suggesting that our society's love of machines and technology is somewhat analogous to our ancestor's relationship to Nature/Fate/the Gods. I have long acknowledged that America more-or-less worships technology, but the parallel is interesting. Is my computer also my Mercury?
In Fact, It Makes Me Nervous
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment to see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now -- Jason Mraz
Boy this weekend was EVENTFUL!
Life Goal No. 1072 ACCOMPLISHED.
So on Saturday, after going apartment hunting, Laura and I go swing dancing with her friend John. We drive all the way to Carrollton to go dancing, and I am super excited cause it's been soooo long since I have been dancing! We get there and I discover that it's west coast swing (I only know east coast!) and we JUST walked in the door and the instructor says to me "east coast?". ::sigh:: I manage to do pretty awfully during the lesson portion, but after we started dancing for real, I caught on much more quickly. It helped that John would dance with Laura and I...at first pretty equally, but then with me more and more frequently. I am SO DENSE that I didn't get that he liked me until at the end of a song he dipped me and kissed me. (Laurie = male interest awareness FAIL). At the end of the night (and sneaking kisses to various body parts when he thought Laura wasn't looking) he asked me out on a date for the next day.
So I accepted.
And then promptly started freaking out over what to wear. ^^;
I didn't have my necessary date accessories! But eventually it was all sorted out, and we went to dinner and a movie on Sunday night. I was supposed to come home Sunday afternoon, but I had to explain to my mom that I wouldn't be coming since I had a date. Gah. My mother is so EMBARRASSING.
I had a good time; John is a great guy and I wouldn't mind going out with him again, but I really have no intention of starting a real relationship with him. It would be epically retarded to start a long-distance relationship with somebody I've known for like 48 hours.
It has come to my attention that sometimes my logic is rather like a man's. This might be yet another reason why I tend to get along better with guys than with girls...?
UNT is so retarded. That is all on that front.
I am SO EXCITED for Elizabeth's birthday!! I get to see everyone, and it's her bday, and we're going to do fun things! And dance to derogatory songs about women! I'll even wear my miniskirt! ;)
Mmmmmhn...I'll prolly fess up tomorrow. Tomorrow's good. Yeeeeah.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
I've been scheduled to work, but I'll call in
"Everyone's going to the party,
won't you come if I come
with a friend for your friend?" -- Dashboard Confessional "So Impossible"
Okay. I don't even know how I manage to get myself into these random romantic situations, but I somehow ended up on a random double (and blind! but saying double blind sounds like an experiment) date with Laura and these two guys. For about six hours we just hung out and had some drinks. I actually had a good time! I expected it to go way waaaaaay more awkwardly than it did.
Tomorrow we go apartment hunting! That is, if we can manage to drag outselves out of bed at any sort of decent hour. And we're going SWING DANCING! I'm SOOOOOOO excited! I haven't been swing dancing in YEARS. There's nobody to go with in Texarkana :( It makes me sadface. :(
Once again, I'm pretty sure there was something I had intended to blog about in this space...but once again it will remain blank. I do that all the time! Especially with my more profound thoughts and ideas. Those I tend to forget to share with the class. However, I can remember to tell the world at large what I had for lunch.
I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
or do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them?
So yes, I'll see you there.
(P.S. This is one of my most favourite songs of all time). :)
Friday, August 28, 2009
All We Are
'Cause in the end nothing stays the same
And in the end dreams just scatter and fall like rain
'Cause all we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful, something real -- Matt Nathanson, "All We Are"
Tomorrow I'm driving down to Arlington to help Laura apartment-hunt, so I will be incommunicado for the most part, mes amis. The girl she JUST moved in with told her she has until the end of September to find a new place to live 'cause she is going to move in with her boyfriend. Awesome. Friendship = epic fail.
A gnat just few into my coffee. I am pondering fishing it out and drinking it anyway. It's a yummy cappuccino I made for myself! Cept not really cause I don't have a fancypants espresso maker or milk-areater. :(
My classes are going to be fairly good experiences this semester, methinks. I am going to enjoy my children's lit class, but despise my american culture class. ...Really it would be better if it weren't American. Why not something cool, like Asian culture? Something not-individual-based? Meh. ::shrug:: Ironically, most of my classes have a heavy psychological basis. Go figure.
UNT decided to fruitbasket turnover a bunch of their profs right before the start of term, so I had to buy six textbooks at 2am off of Amazon.com this morning. Whee. I hope I get them in time to read the twenty chapters I need to have done by Septembre 5. ::eyeroll:: Oh, UNT. Somehow...I am not surprised at ALL. And poor Elizabeth ended up with some astronomy teacher that she can't even understand! :(
I miss going to IHOP and/or someplace on the Square to study. I was pondering this dilemma I have whilst laying in bed yesterday. Where on EARTH am I going to do my work in T-town? I can't work at my house, but there's no convenient Panera or Jupiter House or Hydrant or ANYTHING! I feel strangely abandoned! :( And none of the coffeehouses here have the "study vibe"...moreso the "hang out here because there is nothing else to do in T-town" vibe. Maybe the bread shop place on State Line will be good? I know they serve bagels, fresh bread, and coffee. It's worth a shot! The only problem is, I think it closes early. I won't even get off work until 5, and then I gotta make dinner and do the dishes....8pm is the earliest I can get crackin'.
It's refreshing to me that my most pressing issues in life are: moving houses, attaining a job and letters of recommendation, and.....where to study in Texarkana. :) While some of these are big things, they don't stress me OUT like interpersonal problems do. (praise Jesus!)
Speaking of Jesus, I had a bit of an incident the other day with a girl that thought she was a by far superior Christian to both myself AND Tiffany (and I rate Tiff higher than myself), and generally made us feel rather crappy about ourselves and our relationship with the Lord. While part of me knows she was being a Judgy McJudgerson (thanks Elizabeth <3 ), the majority of me was disquieted and sadsad. ...Guess I just gotta brush off them haters and keep doing the best I can! :)
I have to read The Bean Trees for one of my classes. That's what I get for laughing at the UNT freshmen that have to read that for orientation. Gosh darnit, poetic justice! ::shakes her fist::
I'm quite excited to be able to read 'Smart People Books'. Books that make me think, or that give me a different perspective on life. Not that my usual books don't make me do these things. In fact, I seem to have acquired most of my morals and basic life opinions from fantasy novels. (Or possibly Final Fantasy. I know I learned how to save money from FF ;) ).
Um...something else was going to go here...but I since got distracted by something shiny. Just pretend I said something witty and profound, and we'll call it even. :)
...Why does no one ever consider the life of the pharmacist? Maybe HIS wife was dying, too!!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
So Unsexy
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
The moment I decide not to abandon me -- Alanis Morissette, "So Unsexy"
Today is shaping up to be a very good day, and a downright excellent day for a Tuesday!
The suprise mini-interview I had with Dean Middlebrooks went quite well! There was a bit of an altercation with somebody from the prison as I was waiting to get in to see him, but my life is full of random drama, so it's all good. I also got a call back from St. Michael's! I hadn't heard from them since I put in my application TWO WEEKS AGO...apparently that's because they are just now getting around to going through the apps! Geeeeeez! But Ms. Pam, the HR VP, spoke up in my favour, so, whoooo! :)
I was checking on the Express Personnel website and they only have THIRTEEN jobs that they are trying to find employees to fill positions for the whole Texarkana AREA. There are too many employed people here! haha
I'm finna go to Grandma and Papaw's with the TRUCK and pick up stuff for the garage sale. I think this is going to be a garage sale of EPIC PROPORTIONS!
I bought my Planner today. :) I feel so much better about my life now that I have a planner! :) Happy!Laurie!
If I get the job at Texarkana College....I could get people that are both my employer and a professor to write me letters of recommendation..... :)
I went to the Eakin's and picked up my pan. Brooks' mom is so cute. I hate their driveway; I totally ramped the curb while trying to back out. I'm sure Mr. Eakin was laughing at me from inside his truck ^^;
Off to run errands! :) --Laurie
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edit--6:20pm
Le Petite Morte?
I wanna see you open wide
And when I go down for you
I wanna blow your mind
It's my aim to kill you
It's my aim to love you--DMB, 'Hunger for the Great Light'
I didn't fall asleep last night until after the sun was well and risen. Curse you, nocturnal habits! ::shakes fist::
Tomorrow is shaping up to be a pretty busy day, but I like it like that. I get depressed-ish when there's nothing to do! I'm taking my application to T.C. for the student recruiter position, wish me luck!! I'm also buying my Planner. Anyone who's ever been in class with me knows of the Importance of the Planner (and it's color-coded-y goodness ;) )
Pricing for the garage sale is mostly complete! At least on my end. Tiffany has yet to even round up any junk to sell. ^^; Fail.
I have a sudden craving for IHOP. Maybe my body knows it's back to school time! haha Well, either IHOP or beignets. 'Cause they're super delicious.
Tiffany has been takin the mickey outta me, teasin' me 'cause she thinks I like Brian, her pastor's new stepson. This is not the case, but I'm still up in the air on deciding whether or not to a) continue to allow her to tease me about Brian, or b) fess up and have her tease me about somebody else. ::shakes head::
Along with my love of Augustana, I'm also developing a liking for Ne-Yo. ::shrug:: Where'd THAT come from? (From whence did that come? Straaaange).
Mwah! <3 --Laurie
Friday, August 21, 2009
Sometimes I think she's truly crazy
Don't care where I've been and doesn't care where we're going to
She takes me as I am, and that ain't easy-- "Her Eyes" Pat Monahan
--------edit: 9pm
I got really sleepy before I could finish this post, so I took a nap :) I've been cooped up in the house and super bored for the better part of today. I got so bored I started to clean my room and was HAVING FUN DOING IT. That's *bored*
My job interview went well! The only problem is that they interviewed me for a different shift than I applied for. I applied for 8a-4:30p, and they want to hire me for 2:30p-11p. If I take the job, I will have to give up taking yoga MW with Mom, as well as any semblance of social life, 'cause I would only be off 2 weekends a month. Yet, I need moneys. Quite the conundrum. So please be praying for me for that! :)
And now I'm off to Tiff's to watch Psych! :)
I'm on the Bleachers
Laughin on a park bench thinkin' to myself, 'hey isn't this easy?'--Taylor Swift
I have a job interview in the morning!!! Eeeeek! I am so nervous! OMG SCARY!
I am *so* excited about the New House with Tiffany! It is going to be AWESOME! And I am totally getting Rupert after I get a job :) ...And after I move into the New House. Mom is TERRIBLY phobic. :(
Apparently, Wal-Mart is the place to be to run into people and plan Laurie's future ;)
For reasons unknown to me, even though I have completely logged out of facebook and closed firefox, my computer keeps playing my farmtown animal noises. ...I wish my computer would quit mooing and baa-ing. It's kinda awkward.
I feel like such a girl, but I really like the music videos for Taylor Swift songs. :)
I also really love storms. I laid outside on my trunk for a while this evening and just watching the lighting and danced round and round in circles in the rain. Brooks wanted me to take a picture of myself, but that's super hard to do at 11:00 at night by yourself. ::laugh::
I'm so excited and happy I feel like I could just bubble over! :)
I love you! :) --Laurie
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Sweet and Low
The wind is gonna blow, the water's gonna rise
She said, when the day comes, look into my eyes
No one's giving up quite yet,
We've got too much to lose--"Sweet and Low", Augustana
My uncle Adrian is dying of stage four testicular cancer. That just sucks. He's only about 35! So I am presently making éclairs for him, but as I was beating the snot outta the dough (it's very pesky to make éclairs), I realized that I *should* be making him **bread**! Everyone is always joking that my bread brings world peace and cures cancer! If nothing else, it would at least be kinda funny. And it can't hurt. Who knows, maybe God will work a miracle? :)
I'm on our stoneage desktop, and the monitor and/or video card are/is going out, so I apologize for any spelling errors. And capitol letters, or letters with tops or tails are truncated, making it extremely difficult to tell what exactly it is that I am typing. ^^; But Dad just haaaaas to use the good desktop for his DVD "appropriating".
I have discovered that freaking love Augustana.
As of Friday, all of my frinends that are leaving will have left. Time to make more friends! I'm pretty excited, I love to make new friends. Now if I could just get over this debilitating shyness I seem to have! Gosh darnit. I hope I can a) get a job and b) make friends with my new coworkers. I have an interview at Wadley Hospital Friday for...something clerical-y. I honestly don't recall. All of the jobs I 've applied for have begun to blur into a long stream of social security numbers and home addresses and references @_@
My mother's student assistant's mother OD this morning. She is almost certainly going to die. Dealing with the fallout of that has been fun. I swear I attract drama like nobody's business.
Till next time! <3
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Vindicated
I am right, I swear I'm right, I swear I knew it all along
That I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well--"Vindicated", Dashboard Confessional
Europe was amazingly awesome. This has been a summer of change and travel for sure! I feel like I'm finally back on the right track in my life, and that is a Very Good Thing. :)
Brooks' mom asked me to bake her a cobbler for a family event they're having tomorrow. She is offering to pay me for it, but I'm totally not having any of that. Still, I am incredibly flattered. :D
Laurie McCright--drama magnet extraordinaire. ::headdesk::
I've been doing internal housekeeping over the summer. The most extreme example of this is finally telling David to not contact me and that I refuse to see him. I still get the occasional text message, but it's been a good move on my part. Unfortunately, he still persists in saying that he loves me blah blah blah. Whatever. I'm sure your boyfriend would loooove to know that. Thing is, I'm not in love with him anymore, so he has no power over me.
The job hunt still continues! But really it's only been a week and I have gotten several positive responses and one interview, but no actual job offers. The Lord will provide. :)
My UNT situation is as sticky as ever. I just resolved to not think about that very much. Brooks spent quite a while hashing out possible plans of action with me, for which I am quite thankful; I feel loads better.
I played the piano today for the first time in a very Long Time. Some time around early 2006 I lost the enjoyment I got from playing. But it was good to play again today. Maybe I'll pick it up again. How, I don't know. I won't be able to take my piano to my house with Tiff. Heck, my parents won't even let me take my BED! (which is very strange. We already have a guest bedroom. You'd think they would want my bed out of my room so they could turn it into something useful).
I also want to get back into the habit of reading frequently, but I fear that will have to wait until after Christmas, when I will be out of school. :-\
Until next time! ;)
Friday, July 17, 2009
Homecoming Scotland 2009!
I am having a blast in Europe! The only downside is that Mom is nuts and spaztic, so she periodically drives me batty throughout the day.
We got to Dublin at 8am after not sleeping all night. Well, mom had three hours. My seat didn't recline and Mom kept jabbing me in the RIBS, so I didn't sleep at all.
Dublin is OK. Cork is GREAT! :) And the Irish food is AMAAAAAAZING! For reals. We went to Blarney Castle, and I even kissed the Stone! Hanging upside down and everything! I have a picture :)
I had my very first train ride through the Irish countryside and it was quite lovely. The whole island really IS green! And someone had forested to where there was a smiley face in one of the forests (from an aerial view). :)
Mom cannot understand any of the European accents at all, and they can't understand her either! I find it quite funny! Also funny that I have managed to pick up a kind of lilting way of speaking after like three days. I'm going to come home sounding funky. Dad will ridicule me!
They are playing a Snow Patrol CD where I am, and I like it. I like Snow Patrol, and I have this CD.
Our hotel gave us a RUBBER DUCKIE!!!!! Mom took a picture of me with it. :) I also have wireless, but the signal doesn't reach to our room, so I'm in the bar. If Mom would have an aneurysm, I'd order a drink. As it is, I reckon I'll just sit and enjoy listening to Snow Patrol. :)
Ummm....My brain is so scrambled, I cannot even recall what order I have done things. I meant to blog every day, but this is the first time I haven't had to pay 3.50 for 6 minutes of internet :-\
Europe is SO EXPENSIVE! And the Starbucks is Strange and Not Good. There's no caffiene in the coffee!! (Well, there is, but only a small amount). I ordered my usual nonfat white mocha and it was BLASPHEMOUS! There was no mocha...only the white. It was like...having crappy instant and super watered down hot cocoa, versus the expensive good stuff. And there is no free internets there! I feel what is probably an unreasonable amount of betrayed by Starbucks, hahaha.
Ummm....I'm bored and distracted and it's bedtime, so more later! Mwah! :)
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Captain's Log--Stardate 062109
Yay for being in Edmonton! We finally made it to the pinnacle of our trip! We are at a super nice hotel IN THE MALL! Sadly, this is the one place that offers internet but doesn’t have it for FREE. It’s like 9 dollars a person. Reeeeediculous!
We ate at the cheap hotel restaurant and the service was bad, and I was cranky! It took about an HOUR to eat a samich!
Why are commercials ALWAYS about fooooood? Grrrr. Stupid
Tiffany and I got in the super nice in-room hot tub with a waterfall!! Although we got a bit ridiculous. At some point Tiffany started singing the Hokey Pokey while DOING the hokey pokey in the hot tub. ^^;; There are so many shops in the mall! Including a water park, a theme park, a bowling alley, and 3 McDonaldses.
I finally bought Ender’s Game! So after our hot tubbing, Tiffany and I maded some hot cocoa and are bogged up in the bed watching Runaway Bride and then going to READ BOOKS! Whoooo!
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So Ender's Game is amazing. Tiffany and I camped out at a Starbucks in the mall and read for about three hours this morning, then watched some random Native American dancers and now we are established in our motel for the evening. Sadly, our reservation is lost in the ether, but I can't complain too much. After all, we have been on the road for weeks now and this is the first lodging snag we've come across!
Back to Ender's Game. :)
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Captain's Log--Stardate 061809
Captain’s Log--Stardate 061409
I am writing this from my car! Haha! I found a solution to my time crunch issue! We are about 45 minutes from Seattle and the ORIGINAL STARBUCKS!!!! Whoooo! I’m so excited! Coffee for EVERYONE! Also, Starbuckses are now giving out COUPONS to SB products you can purchase in the supermarket. I picked up a book for myself and you should too! J
We are going to get some coffee with Mallory, provided that we ever get to Seattle. We’ve been stuck in heavy traffic for a while. In fact, the state of Washington oh-so-helpfully has those electronic signs up…and they say “heavy traffic”. Gee. I hadn’t noticed. Thanks.
Oh 90s country, you make me giggle. “Boot Scootin Boogie” and “I Like My Women a Little on the Trashy Side”.
We went to church this morning in Salem, OR. It was pretty oldschool Baptist. I felt like we drove 4k miles only to still be in Texarkana. Speaking of, we have gone about 4,100 miles! I hope that we make it the entire trip without having to get my oil changed. My oil is at 50% right now, so who knows?
“Ignition (Remix)” just came on the radio and I am jamming to it. J
Tomorrow is CANADA!
Back to THIS update! I have had a bit of a cold the past couple of days, but seem to be doing better now. I took a tylenol PM nad passed out in the car for 5 hours en route to Penticton, BC. I am not attempting to do my linguistics coursework while stoned on medicine. ...Effective.I went over a HUGE suspension bridge the other day! That was an accomplishment for me. I am afraid of bridges in general, nevermind SUSPENSION bridges. That goes triple for huge ones over canyons.
I find it really funny that I'm sitting in Canada listening to spoof country music. It's like weird al, except country.
I have had so much Chinese food since coming to Canada, it's been great! And dim sum with Tiffany's grandparents was soooooooooooo yummy!! My favourite was the pork buns and the sticky rice! It came in leaves! It was exciting!
Now I am being herded out of the house to go see the sights? Or something. Starbucks wil be involved, so I'm sold! ;)
This is Laurie, signing out! Mwah! :)
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Captain's Log--Stardate 061309
I have entirely too many irons in the fire, here! Between studying for the PT exam, brushing up my French, editing Tiffany's book, studying for my linguistics course, driving, and doing fun stuff I am B-U-S-Y! Finding wireless has been an endeavor. I get two free hours of wireless at Starbucks, but if that is the only wireless I get for the day, most of that is spent doing linguistics 'cause I kinda should do my schoolwork first.
The Pacific is much colder than the Atlantic, but smells better. Tiff and I saw SEALS in the water! It was so cold it caused our legs to BURN. That's pretty freaking cold water.
I am presently in Salem, Oregon! Tomorrow I am going to the ORIGINAL STARBUCKS! Also I am going to meet up with my roommate, because she is randomly going to be in Seattle at the exact same time! She will have been there for 2 days, so I told her she had 48 hours to find the best coffeehouse in the city. I bet she accomplished her mission. Mallory loves coffee even more than I do!
I always think of really neat things to blog about...but it's always when I'm either in the shower or driving, and I inevitably forget by the time I reach the computer. Or I just feel like I have blogged, 'cause I kinda self-blogged...in my head.
Las Vegas was amazing! I loved all the lights, and cool things! I saw the worlds largest chocolate fountain in the Bellagio. LA was not a very fun part of the trip for me. For one, Tiffany's family had all diet or soy to eat/drink, so I starved. Also, I just didn't like the city. But! We successfully managed BOTH the subway and the bus systems! And I got my picture taken with Yoda. San Fran I liked MUCH better. We had an Asian-themed day were we went to the Japanese Tea Garden, the botanical gardens, the Asian Art Museum (LOTS of cool things. And SHINIES!), and then CHINATOWN! I would totally go back to San Fran. Oh! And we got video footage of the Golden Gate. (Complete with John Williams theme music! ;) ).
The Oregon Shakespeare Festival is TOTALLY worth the trek. We saw A Servant of Two Masters and it was FREAKING HILARIOUS! I laughed so much my throat hurt! It was quasi-moderized, and the random bits of current events made it EVEN FUNNIER!
I have ended up doing a lot of the driving 'cause Tiffany is afraid of driving when there are more than two lanes and/or in large cities. So sheltered!
Not being able to pump my own gas in the state of Oregon is bothering me. One, I want to do it myself, and two, I am unsure as to whether or not I should tip the gas attendants. It leaves me feeling socially out-of-place on all accounts. Disgruntled!Laurie
I will be even more incommunicado after the 15th because I will be in CANADA!!! And my phone won't work.
There is a lot I should ahve remembered to blog. Sad day. But for now, I sleep! :)
This is Laurie, signing out. ;)
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Captain's Log--Stardate 060409
I am presently holed up in a coffeehouse in Gallup, New Mexico, enjoying live blues music. Someone is even playing some instrument that looks like a big stick with a string. And the banjo!
In other news: Tiffany and I managed to leave TEN MINUTES early for the Aztec Ruins today, whooo go us! Ten minutes early is like....an HOUR early in Laurie-time! Do not be mislead. The "Aztec Ruins" are not from Aztecs. That would be much further south. Nono, these are Plueblo Indians, stupid white people just thought they were Aztecs and the name stuck. Go figure. But! The ruins were super spiffy, Tiff has plenty of pictures to share on facebook.
In one day, Tiffany and I traversed almost the entirety of New Mexico, boy did THAT suck. We have discovered that New Mexicans cannot drive, and NM epically fails at posting signs. For ANYTHING. 'What road are we on? I have NO CLUE, there hasn't been a road sign for the past hour and a half....'. Yeah.
Also, there are almost NO coffeehouses with wi-fi. None! We found this one cause we prayed to Jesus AND found a lucky penny. Fo sho.
We stumbled across a random Insian festval next to the coffeehouse, so we got some pictures and video footage of Indian dancing/music. Epic win :)
Tomorrow is the GRAND CANYON!!!!! Whooooooo!!! I hope I don't drop the camera... ^^;
This is Laurie, signing out.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Captain's Log--Stardate 060309
Today we spent an extended period of time traversing the wasteland that is New Mexico. There is NOTHING HERE. For reals.
Carlsbad Caverns was AMAZING, see my facebook for photos and Tiff's for details. I am far too lazy. ;)
Then we trucked it over to Roswell, NM to see the Alien Museum and Research Centre. I have a few minutes of humorous video footage to evidence this.
Presently, Tiffany and I have tracked down the only coffee place in this one-horse town and are mooching their wireless internet...though I don't guess it counts as mooching, as I paid 4.50 for a large mocha. My ONLY COFFEE TODAY!!! I almost died! (Exaggeration. However, I did get cranky!)
The mountains in New Mexico are rather picturesque. We passed through a bunch with lovely trees on them, and I liked that, but now these just have random scruffy grass and shrubberies. Many Monty Python quotes have abounded (Nic!).
Unrelated: Last night Tiffany and I were gearing down for bed and I had a thought. I wonder if God calls us all by individual names. As in...God has a totally unique name for us, not necessarily what our parents chose to name us. This rather appeals to me. And after all, 50,000 "John Smiths" in heaven would get rather confusing! ;)
This is Laurie, signing out.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Captain's Log--Stardate 060209
Today, Tiffany and I left on our Super Ultimate Road Trip EXTRAVAGANZA!!!1 After a token amount of false starts, the trip was underway at about 9:40. We ate on the road and arrived in Midland, TX sometime about 5:45 pm. That is SO FREAKING LONG in the car. I find it unfortunate that Tiffany and I have different musical tastes.
Events:
-12:43--first exploded car sighted
-6:49--first arrest witnessed
-8:05--dust storm hits Midland, tornado watch issued
Because I am poor and have no job, I am being forced to undergo COFFEE DEPRIVATION during this trip. I'm down to one or two cups a DAY! A DAY!! I don't know which one of us will crack first, Tiffany or myself due to me being crazy without my maintenance dose. I DO have my super emergency stash of blackblack, courtesy of Brooks. (Thaaaanks Brooooks! <3 )
Mom tried to convince me to bring a machete with me on the trip...I did not see that ending well for any party involved. Instead, she made me bring a very small fire extinguisher....but not to put out fires....Oh no. It's to bludgeon people to death, if we have car trouble. ^^;
And DAD told Papaw that we would be bringing his gun with us on the trip. Even WORSE of an idea. I have no issue with firearms, and I am a fair shot, but....you can't bring guns into Canada. And you CERTAINLY should NOT lie and tell the Canadian border police that you "don't know how that got there" when referring to a GUN. My family.... Oy.
I'm dyeing my hair tonight! :) I'm pretty excited about it! Although, I will look retarded for about two days, while the excess red washes out, but it's all good. Nobody knows me in New Mexico. OMG! I might see a roadrunner! ^__^ I am plotting to try and catch a tumbleweed.
Tomorrow's Agenda:
1) eat free breakfast
2) steal breakfast foods for a snack later
3) Carlsbad Caverns
4) Roswell Alien Museum
5) drive to Alamogordo, NM to crash for the night








