So. More on this me-yet-not-me thing. I dunno what it is, but I have some sort of wonky, jacked-up defence mechanism involving me chameleon-izing myself to a rediculous extent. This applies almost exclusively to unattached straight guys. If you are a) in a relationship, b) gay, or c) female, you're probably "priviliged" enough to know the bona fide Laurie. It's almost like I don't want to be found, even though I desperately do!
This is not something I do on purpose, at all. In fact, I get terribly cross with myself when I catch me doin it. Worse, I'm so terribly unreasonable that I get irritated at whatever guy that's tryin to get in my pants at the time, for not even trying to see through my crazy facade....not that I even mean to have a facade! >.O Augh!
::eye roll:: I do a splendid job of ruining my own chances for happiness, no outside sabotage needed! ::sigh::
On that note, I'm really not all emo at the moment. Just very frustrated with myself!!
Nighty night! ;) --Laurie
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