So she says
"Everyone's going to the party,
won't you come if I come
with a friend for your friend?" -- Dashboard Confessional "So Impossible"
Okay. I don't even know how I manage to get myself into these random romantic situations, but I somehow ended up on a random double (and blind! but saying double blind sounds like an experiment) date with Laura and these two guys. For about six hours we just hung out and had some drinks. I actually had a good time! I expected it to go way waaaaaay more awkwardly than it did.
Tomorrow we go apartment hunting! That is, if we can manage to drag outselves out of bed at any sort of decent hour. And we're going SWING DANCING! I'm SOOOOOOO excited! I haven't been swing dancing in YEARS. There's nobody to go with in Texarkana :( It makes me sadface. :(
Once again, I'm pretty sure there was something I had intended to blog about in this space...but once again it will remain blank. I do that all the time! Especially with my more profound thoughts and ideas. Those I tend to forget to share with the class. However, I can remember to tell the world at large what I had for lunch.
I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
or do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them?
So yes, I'll see you there.
(P.S. This is one of my most favourite songs of all time). :)
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
All We Are
And in the end the words won't matter
'Cause in the end nothing stays the same
And in the end dreams just scatter and fall like rain
'Cause all we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful, something real -- Matt Nathanson, "All We Are"
Tomorrow I'm driving down to Arlington to help Laura apartment-hunt, so I will be incommunicado for the most part, mes amis. The girl she JUST moved in with told her she has until the end of September to find a new place to live 'cause she is going to move in with her boyfriend. Awesome. Friendship = epic fail.
A gnat just few into my coffee. I am pondering fishing it out and drinking it anyway. It's a yummy cappuccino I made for myself! Cept not really cause I don't have a fancypants espresso maker or milk-areater. :(
My classes are going to be fairly good experiences this semester, methinks. I am going to enjoy my children's lit class, but despise my american culture class. ...Really it would be better if it weren't American. Why not something cool, like Asian culture? Something not-individual-based? Meh. ::shrug:: Ironically, most of my classes have a heavy psychological basis. Go figure.
UNT decided to fruitbasket turnover a bunch of their profs right before the start of term, so I had to buy six textbooks at 2am off of Amazon.com this morning. Whee. I hope I get them in time to read the twenty chapters I need to have done by Septembre 5. ::eyeroll:: Oh, UNT. Somehow...I am not surprised at ALL. And poor Elizabeth ended up with some astronomy teacher that she can't even understand! :(
I miss going to IHOP and/or someplace on the Square to study. I was pondering this dilemma I have whilst laying in bed yesterday. Where on EARTH am I going to do my work in T-town? I can't work at my house, but there's no convenient Panera or Jupiter House or Hydrant or ANYTHING! I feel strangely abandoned! :( And none of the coffeehouses here have the "study vibe"...moreso the "hang out here because there is nothing else to do in T-town" vibe. Maybe the bread shop place on State Line will be good? I know they serve bagels, fresh bread, and coffee. It's worth a shot! The only problem is, I think it closes early. I won't even get off work until 5, and then I gotta make dinner and do the dishes....8pm is the earliest I can get crackin'.
It's refreshing to me that my most pressing issues in life are: moving houses, attaining a job and letters of recommendation, and.....where to study in Texarkana. :) While some of these are big things, they don't stress me OUT like interpersonal problems do. (praise Jesus!)
Speaking of Jesus, I had a bit of an incident the other day with a girl that thought she was a by far superior Christian to both myself AND Tiffany (and I rate Tiff higher than myself), and generally made us feel rather crappy about ourselves and our relationship with the Lord. While part of me knows she was being a Judgy McJudgerson (thanks Elizabeth <3 ), the majority of me was disquieted and sadsad. ...Guess I just gotta brush off them haters and keep doing the best I can! :)
I have to read The Bean Trees for one of my classes. That's what I get for laughing at the UNT freshmen that have to read that for orientation. Gosh darnit, poetic justice! ::shakes her fist::
I'm quite excited to be able to read 'Smart People Books'. Books that make me think, or that give me a different perspective on life. Not that my usual books don't make me do these things. In fact, I seem to have acquired most of my morals and basic life opinions from fantasy novels. (Or possibly Final Fantasy. I know I learned how to save money from FF ;) ).
Um...something else was going to go here...but I since got distracted by something shiny. Just pretend I said something witty and profound, and we'll call it even. :)
...Why does no one ever consider the life of the pharmacist? Maybe HIS wife was dying, too!!
'Cause in the end nothing stays the same
And in the end dreams just scatter and fall like rain
'Cause all we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful, something real -- Matt Nathanson, "All We Are"
Tomorrow I'm driving down to Arlington to help Laura apartment-hunt, so I will be incommunicado for the most part, mes amis. The girl she JUST moved in with told her she has until the end of September to find a new place to live 'cause she is going to move in with her boyfriend. Awesome. Friendship = epic fail.
A gnat just few into my coffee. I am pondering fishing it out and drinking it anyway. It's a yummy cappuccino I made for myself! Cept not really cause I don't have a fancypants espresso maker or milk-areater. :(
My classes are going to be fairly good experiences this semester, methinks. I am going to enjoy my children's lit class, but despise my american culture class. ...Really it would be better if it weren't American. Why not something cool, like Asian culture? Something not-individual-based? Meh. ::shrug:: Ironically, most of my classes have a heavy psychological basis. Go figure.
UNT decided to fruitbasket turnover a bunch of their profs right before the start of term, so I had to buy six textbooks at 2am off of Amazon.com this morning. Whee. I hope I get them in time to read the twenty chapters I need to have done by Septembre 5. ::eyeroll:: Oh, UNT. Somehow...I am not surprised at ALL. And poor Elizabeth ended up with some astronomy teacher that she can't even understand! :(
I miss going to IHOP and/or someplace on the Square to study. I was pondering this dilemma I have whilst laying in bed yesterday. Where on EARTH am I going to do my work in T-town? I can't work at my house, but there's no convenient Panera or Jupiter House or Hydrant or ANYTHING! I feel strangely abandoned! :( And none of the coffeehouses here have the "study vibe"...moreso the "hang out here because there is nothing else to do in T-town" vibe. Maybe the bread shop place on State Line will be good? I know they serve bagels, fresh bread, and coffee. It's worth a shot! The only problem is, I think it closes early. I won't even get off work until 5, and then I gotta make dinner and do the dishes....8pm is the earliest I can get crackin'.
It's refreshing to me that my most pressing issues in life are: moving houses, attaining a job and letters of recommendation, and.....where to study in Texarkana. :) While some of these are big things, they don't stress me OUT like interpersonal problems do. (praise Jesus!)
Speaking of Jesus, I had a bit of an incident the other day with a girl that thought she was a by far superior Christian to both myself AND Tiffany (and I rate Tiff higher than myself), and generally made us feel rather crappy about ourselves and our relationship with the Lord. While part of me knows she was being a Judgy McJudgerson (thanks Elizabeth <3 ), the majority of me was disquieted and sadsad. ...Guess I just gotta brush off them haters and keep doing the best I can! :)
I have to read The Bean Trees for one of my classes. That's what I get for laughing at the UNT freshmen that have to read that for orientation. Gosh darnit, poetic justice! ::shakes her fist::
I'm quite excited to be able to read 'Smart People Books'. Books that make me think, or that give me a different perspective on life. Not that my usual books don't make me do these things. In fact, I seem to have acquired most of my morals and basic life opinions from fantasy novels. (Or possibly Final Fantasy. I know I learned how to save money from FF ;) ).
Um...something else was going to go here...but I since got distracted by something shiny. Just pretend I said something witty and profound, and we'll call it even. :)
...Why does no one ever consider the life of the pharmacist? Maybe HIS wife was dying, too!!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
So Unsexy
Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
The moment I decide not to abandon me -- Alanis Morissette, "So Unsexy"
Today is shaping up to be a very good day, and a downright excellent day for a Tuesday!
The suprise mini-interview I had with Dean Middlebrooks went quite well! There was a bit of an altercation with somebody from the prison as I was waiting to get in to see him, but my life is full of random drama, so it's all good. I also got a call back from St. Michael's! I hadn't heard from them since I put in my application TWO WEEKS AGO...apparently that's because they are just now getting around to going through the apps! Geeeeeez! But Ms. Pam, the HR VP, spoke up in my favour, so, whoooo! :)
I was checking on the Express Personnel website and they only have THIRTEEN jobs that they are trying to find employees to fill positions for the whole Texarkana AREA. There are too many employed people here! haha
I'm finna go to Grandma and Papaw's with the TRUCK and pick up stuff for the garage sale. I think this is going to be a garage sale of EPIC PROPORTIONS!
I bought my Planner today. :) I feel so much better about my life now that I have a planner! :) Happy!Laurie!
If I get the job at Texarkana College....I could get people that are both my employer and a professor to write me letters of recommendation..... :)
I went to the Eakin's and picked up my pan. Brooks' mom is so cute. I hate their driveway; I totally ramped the curb while trying to back out. I'm sure Mr. Eakin was laughing at me from inside his truck ^^;
Off to run errands! :) --Laurie
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edit--6:20pm
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
The moment I decide not to abandon me -- Alanis Morissette, "So Unsexy"
Today is shaping up to be a very good day, and a downright excellent day for a Tuesday!
The suprise mini-interview I had with Dean Middlebrooks went quite well! There was a bit of an altercation with somebody from the prison as I was waiting to get in to see him, but my life is full of random drama, so it's all good. I also got a call back from St. Michael's! I hadn't heard from them since I put in my application TWO WEEKS AGO...apparently that's because they are just now getting around to going through the apps! Geeeeeez! But Ms. Pam, the HR VP, spoke up in my favour, so, whoooo! :)
I was checking on the Express Personnel website and they only have THIRTEEN jobs that they are trying to find employees to fill positions for the whole Texarkana AREA. There are too many employed people here! haha
I'm finna go to Grandma and Papaw's with the TRUCK and pick up stuff for the garage sale. I think this is going to be a garage sale of EPIC PROPORTIONS!
I bought my Planner today. :) I feel so much better about my life now that I have a planner! :) Happy!Laurie!
If I get the job at Texarkana College....I could get people that are both my employer and a professor to write me letters of recommendation..... :)
I went to the Eakin's and picked up my pan. Brooks' mom is so cute. I hate their driveway; I totally ramped the curb while trying to back out. I'm sure Mr. Eakin was laughing at me from inside his truck ^^;
Off to run errands! :) --Laurie
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edit--6:20pm
Le Petite Morte?
I wanna be your hunger
I wanna see you open wide
And when I go down for you
I wanna blow your mind
It's my aim to kill you
It's my aim to love you--DMB, 'Hunger for the Great Light'
I didn't fall asleep last night until after the sun was well and risen. Curse you, nocturnal habits! ::shakes fist::
Tomorrow is shaping up to be a pretty busy day, but I like it like that. I get depressed-ish when there's nothing to do! I'm taking my application to T.C. for the student recruiter position, wish me luck!! I'm also buying my Planner. Anyone who's ever been in class with me knows of the Importance of the Planner (and it's color-coded-y goodness ;) )
Pricing for the garage sale is mostly complete! At least on my end. Tiffany has yet to even round up any junk to sell. ^^; Fail.
I have a sudden craving for IHOP. Maybe my body knows it's back to school time! haha Well, either IHOP or beignets. 'Cause they're super delicious.
Tiffany has been takin the mickey outta me, teasin' me 'cause she thinks I like Brian, her pastor's new stepson. This is not the case, but I'm still up in the air on deciding whether or not to a) continue to allow her to tease me about Brian, or b) fess up and have her tease me about somebody else. ::shakes head::
Along with my love of Augustana, I'm also developing a liking for Ne-Yo. ::shrug:: Where'd THAT come from? (From whence did that come? Straaaange).
Mwah! <3 --Laurie
I wanna see you open wide
And when I go down for you
I wanna blow your mind
It's my aim to kill you
It's my aim to love you--DMB, 'Hunger for the Great Light'
I didn't fall asleep last night until after the sun was well and risen. Curse you, nocturnal habits! ::shakes fist::
Tomorrow is shaping up to be a pretty busy day, but I like it like that. I get depressed-ish when there's nothing to do! I'm taking my application to T.C. for the student recruiter position, wish me luck!! I'm also buying my Planner. Anyone who's ever been in class with me knows of the Importance of the Planner (and it's color-coded-y goodness ;) )
Pricing for the garage sale is mostly complete! At least on my end. Tiffany has yet to even round up any junk to sell. ^^; Fail.
I have a sudden craving for IHOP. Maybe my body knows it's back to school time! haha Well, either IHOP or beignets. 'Cause they're super delicious.
Tiffany has been takin the mickey outta me, teasin' me 'cause she thinks I like Brian, her pastor's new stepson. This is not the case, but I'm still up in the air on deciding whether or not to a) continue to allow her to tease me about Brian, or b) fess up and have her tease me about somebody else. ::shakes head::
Along with my love of Augustana, I'm also developing a liking for Ne-Yo. ::shrug:: Where'd THAT come from? (From whence did that come? Straaaange).
Mwah! <3 --Laurie
Friday, August 21, 2009
Sometimes I think she's truly crazy
She doesn't know the word impossible
Don't care where I've been and doesn't care where we're going to
She takes me as I am, and that ain't easy-- "Her Eyes" Pat Monahan
--------edit: 9pm
I got really sleepy before I could finish this post, so I took a nap :) I've been cooped up in the house and super bored for the better part of today. I got so bored I started to clean my room and was HAVING FUN DOING IT. That's *bored*
My job interview went well! The only problem is that they interviewed me for a different shift than I applied for. I applied for 8a-4:30p, and they want to hire me for 2:30p-11p. If I take the job, I will have to give up taking yoga MW with Mom, as well as any semblance of social life, 'cause I would only be off 2 weekends a month. Yet, I need moneys. Quite the conundrum. So please be praying for me for that! :)
And now I'm off to Tiff's to watch Psych! :)
Don't care where I've been and doesn't care where we're going to
She takes me as I am, and that ain't easy-- "Her Eyes" Pat Monahan
--------edit: 9pm
I got really sleepy before I could finish this post, so I took a nap :) I've been cooped up in the house and super bored for the better part of today. I got so bored I started to clean my room and was HAVING FUN DOING IT. That's *bored*
My job interview went well! The only problem is that they interviewed me for a different shift than I applied for. I applied for 8a-4:30p, and they want to hire me for 2:30p-11p. If I take the job, I will have to give up taking yoga MW with Mom, as well as any semblance of social life, 'cause I would only be off 2 weekends a month. Yet, I need moneys. Quite the conundrum. So please be praying for me for that! :)
And now I'm off to Tiff's to watch Psych! :)
I'm on the Bleachers
I can't help but thinkin' this is how it aught to be
Laughin on a park bench thinkin' to myself, 'hey isn't this easy?'--Taylor Swift
I have a job interview in the morning!!! Eeeeek! I am so nervous! OMG SCARY!
I am *so* excited about the New House with Tiffany! It is going to be AWESOME! And I am totally getting Rupert after I get a job :) ...And after I move into the New House. Mom is TERRIBLY phobic. :(
Apparently, Wal-Mart is the place to be to run into people and plan Laurie's future ;)
For reasons unknown to me, even though I have completely logged out of facebook and closed firefox, my computer keeps playing my farmtown animal noises. ...I wish my computer would quit mooing and baa-ing. It's kinda awkward.
I feel like such a girl, but I really like the music videos for Taylor Swift songs. :)
I also really love storms. I laid outside on my trunk for a while this evening and just watching the lighting and danced round and round in circles in the rain. Brooks wanted me to take a picture of myself, but that's super hard to do at 11:00 at night by yourself. ::laugh::
I'm so excited and happy I feel like I could just bubble over! :)
I love you! :) --Laurie
Laughin on a park bench thinkin' to myself, 'hey isn't this easy?'--Taylor Swift
I have a job interview in the morning!!! Eeeeek! I am so nervous! OMG SCARY!
I am *so* excited about the New House with Tiffany! It is going to be AWESOME! And I am totally getting Rupert after I get a job :) ...And after I move into the New House. Mom is TERRIBLY phobic. :(
Apparently, Wal-Mart is the place to be to run into people and plan Laurie's future ;)
For reasons unknown to me, even though I have completely logged out of facebook and closed firefox, my computer keeps playing my farmtown animal noises. ...I wish my computer would quit mooing and baa-ing. It's kinda awkward.
I feel like such a girl, but I really like the music videos for Taylor Swift songs. :)
I also really love storms. I laid outside on my trunk for a while this evening and just watching the lighting and danced round and round in circles in the rain. Brooks wanted me to take a picture of myself, but that's super hard to do at 11:00 at night by yourself. ::laugh::
I'm so excited and happy I feel like I could just bubble over! :)
I love you! :) --Laurie
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Sweet and Low
Rain is gonna fall, the sun is gonna shine,
The wind is gonna blow, the water's gonna rise
She said, when the day comes, look into my eyes
No one's giving up quite yet,
We've got too much to lose--"Sweet and Low", Augustana
My uncle Adrian is dying of stage four testicular cancer. That just sucks. He's only about 35! So I am presently making éclairs for him, but as I was beating the snot outta the dough (it's very pesky to make éclairs), I realized that I *should* be making him **bread**! Everyone is always joking that my bread brings world peace and cures cancer! If nothing else, it would at least be kinda funny. And it can't hurt. Who knows, maybe God will work a miracle? :)
I'm on our stoneage desktop, and the monitor and/or video card are/is going out, so I apologize for any spelling errors. And capitol letters, or letters with tops or tails are truncated, making it extremely difficult to tell what exactly it is that I am typing. ^^; But Dad just haaaaas to use the good desktop for his DVD "appropriating".
I have discovered that freaking love Augustana.
As of Friday, all of my frinends that are leaving will have left. Time to make more friends! I'm pretty excited, I love to make new friends. Now if I could just get over this debilitating shyness I seem to have! Gosh darnit. I hope I can a) get a job and b) make friends with my new coworkers. I have an interview at Wadley Hospital Friday for...something clerical-y. I honestly don't recall. All of the jobs I 've applied for have begun to blur into a long stream of social security numbers and home addresses and references @_@
My mother's student assistant's mother OD this morning. She is almost certainly going to die. Dealing with the fallout of that has been fun. I swear I attract drama like nobody's business.
Till next time! <3
The wind is gonna blow, the water's gonna rise
She said, when the day comes, look into my eyes
No one's giving up quite yet,
We've got too much to lose--"Sweet and Low", Augustana
My uncle Adrian is dying of stage four testicular cancer. That just sucks. He's only about 35! So I am presently making éclairs for him, but as I was beating the snot outta the dough (it's very pesky to make éclairs), I realized that I *should* be making him **bread**! Everyone is always joking that my bread brings world peace and cures cancer! If nothing else, it would at least be kinda funny. And it can't hurt. Who knows, maybe God will work a miracle? :)
I'm on our stoneage desktop, and the monitor and/or video card are/is going out, so I apologize for any spelling errors. And capitol letters, or letters with tops or tails are truncated, making it extremely difficult to tell what exactly it is that I am typing. ^^; But Dad just haaaaas to use the good desktop for his DVD "appropriating".
I have discovered that freaking love Augustana.
As of Friday, all of my frinends that are leaving will have left. Time to make more friends! I'm pretty excited, I love to make new friends. Now if I could just get over this debilitating shyness I seem to have! Gosh darnit. I hope I can a) get a job and b) make friends with my new coworkers. I have an interview at Wadley Hospital Friday for...something clerical-y. I honestly don't recall. All of the jobs I 've applied for have begun to blur into a long stream of social security numbers and home addresses and references @_@
My mother's student assistant's mother OD this morning. She is almost certainly going to die. Dealing with the fallout of that has been fun. I swear I attract drama like nobody's business.
Till next time! <3
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Vindicated
Vindicated, I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right, I swear I knew it all along
That I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well--"Vindicated", Dashboard Confessional
Europe was amazingly awesome. This has been a summer of change and travel for sure! I feel like I'm finally back on the right track in my life, and that is a Very Good Thing. :)
Brooks' mom asked me to bake her a cobbler for a family event they're having tomorrow. She is offering to pay me for it, but I'm totally not having any of that. Still, I am incredibly flattered. :D
Laurie McCright--drama magnet extraordinaire. ::headdesk::
I've been doing internal housekeeping over the summer. The most extreme example of this is finally telling David to not contact me and that I refuse to see him. I still get the occasional text message, but it's been a good move on my part. Unfortunately, he still persists in saying that he loves me blah blah blah. Whatever. I'm sure your boyfriend would loooove to know that. Thing is, I'm not in love with him anymore, so he has no power over me.
The job hunt still continues! But really it's only been a week and I have gotten several positive responses and one interview, but no actual job offers. The Lord will provide. :)
My UNT situation is as sticky as ever. I just resolved to not think about that very much. Brooks spent quite a while hashing out possible plans of action with me, for which I am quite thankful; I feel loads better.
I played the piano today for the first time in a very Long Time. Some time around early 2006 I lost the enjoyment I got from playing. But it was good to play again today. Maybe I'll pick it up again. How, I don't know. I won't be able to take my piano to my house with Tiff. Heck, my parents won't even let me take my BED! (which is very strange. We already have a guest bedroom. You'd think they would want my bed out of my room so they could turn it into something useful).
I also want to get back into the habit of reading frequently, but I fear that will have to wait until after Christmas, when I will be out of school. :-\
Until next time! ;)
I am right, I swear I'm right, I swear I knew it all along
That I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well--"Vindicated", Dashboard Confessional
Europe was amazingly awesome. This has been a summer of change and travel for sure! I feel like I'm finally back on the right track in my life, and that is a Very Good Thing. :)
Brooks' mom asked me to bake her a cobbler for a family event they're having tomorrow. She is offering to pay me for it, but I'm totally not having any of that. Still, I am incredibly flattered. :D
Laurie McCright--drama magnet extraordinaire. ::headdesk::
I've been doing internal housekeeping over the summer. The most extreme example of this is finally telling David to not contact me and that I refuse to see him. I still get the occasional text message, but it's been a good move on my part. Unfortunately, he still persists in saying that he loves me blah blah blah. Whatever. I'm sure your boyfriend would loooove to know that. Thing is, I'm not in love with him anymore, so he has no power over me.
The job hunt still continues! But really it's only been a week and I have gotten several positive responses and one interview, but no actual job offers. The Lord will provide. :)
My UNT situation is as sticky as ever. I just resolved to not think about that very much. Brooks spent quite a while hashing out possible plans of action with me, for which I am quite thankful; I feel loads better.
I played the piano today for the first time in a very Long Time. Some time around early 2006 I lost the enjoyment I got from playing. But it was good to play again today. Maybe I'll pick it up again. How, I don't know. I won't be able to take my piano to my house with Tiff. Heck, my parents won't even let me take my BED! (which is very strange. We already have a guest bedroom. You'd think they would want my bed out of my room so they could turn it into something useful).
I also want to get back into the habit of reading frequently, but I fear that will have to wait until after Christmas, when I will be out of school. :-\
Until next time! ;)
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