On Writing

It has come to my attention that I have a weird fear of writing things down, any kind of things.  Essays, thoughts, to-do lists, often times even blogging is an exercise in overcoming the trepidation involved in writing.  I have thoughts roll through my head all the time, or I think of things I should be writing, but when it comes time to record my words for other people to read them I just....go blank.  Struck dumb by....what, exactly?

I'm tired of being held back in life by my own mental block in this area.  I call bullshit on myself.

(And even still, I just spent ten minutes staring blankly at my computer screen.  Obviously this is a work in progress.)

Displeased.

Mid-September

I've found within myself the resolve to quit my job at Cracker Barrel.  I endure continual abuse, not being allowed to eat, drink water, or take restroom breaks on a daily basis, for what?  150-200 bucks a week?  And an entire weeks' worth of that going to pay for gasoline to get me there?  Pffft.

Since my decision to quit, I feel so much relief.  I despise that place, and all the abuses that go with it.  I have a freaking college degree.  My IQ is over 150.  Nobody is going to tell me that I'm not allowed to eat or pee ever again.

I've been saving money from age six.  I have enough in my savings account to live at my current level for eight months, well....probably seven, since I'll be needing to buy Christmas gifts. ;)  I refuse to believe that my family (or Brooks if it came to that) would genuinely let me starve.  Of what am I so terrified?

It's way past time that I took back control of my life.

One Month In

I've been living in Austin almost one month now.  So far I enjoy my apartment complex, and despise my place of employment.  I finally got the Internet at my house yesterday, as well as got my cable TV straightened out :)

Due to my extreme hatred of Cracker Barrel, I've moved my going back to school plans up from the summer to this coming spring semester.  The application deadline is October 1st, so I've gotta hop to it!  I've a couple of essays to write, but I really really REEEEEALLY hope I get accepted.  I'll be glad to finish my biology degree, and I'm excited to take more classes on genetics and immunology!

I miss my friends from UNT a good deal, I wish there could be visiting, but as long as I work at Cracker Barrel, I'm working every weekend. :-\

I'm a bit stumped on what topic to choose for my second essay: "Choose an issue of importance to you – the issue could be personal, school related, local, political, or international in scope – and write an essay in which you explain the significance of that issue to yourself, your family, your community, or your generation."


Any ideas, internet-at-large?